I made a decision. This decision is something that has always been beyond me and quite perplexing for me to even imagine.
It is very simple: Let it be. Whatever it is, just let it be. Do not over think it. Do not chew on it. Do not exhaust the possibilites. Just let it be.
I like plans and boxes and organization in all aspects of my life and the last two years have been anything but organized. I have been so out of sorts and concentrating on how it is affecting me that I have forgotten to step back and enjoy it. To find peace in the chaos and clutter.
Alas, though I am accepting it and moving on. My life is hectic, chaotic and dirty. Now the only challenge is getting used to it.