stressed out

Today was a very bad day for Scott and I... we've been kind of barely hanging on lately with our finances and today we started our monthly budget for March and realized that we've reached the end of the rope. He's been unemployed for five months and everything we had is gone. We are going to have to utilize some help from welfare, if we can. Food stamps and what not. I don't know what else to do really. Scott and I are looking at all of our options and he is thinking about switching careers, too. We've done some research and many of the county sheriff and police stations have availabilities right now. He set up his test date and has applied. He takes his written and physical tests starting on March 30th. Other than that he is going to stay in the Union for Operating Engineers and keep all of his testing up to date in case he decides to go back to that. Right now though, if he passes the tests he can obtain a regular, monthly salary and with two kids that is what has to happen. We've talked about me putting school on hold, again. But the fact is that if I stopped attending I would have to start making payments on my loans for the quarter and if I don't keep at it this time, I am afraid I will end up just not going back. I can't take that and neither can Scott. I was gone, for so long and our marriage and our every day suffered for it. We've tried to be as positive as possible about everything and saying that he is going to get a job soon, it just never seems to come and it is starting to seriously affect everything and everyone in this house. We are so stressed out and trying to ignore it for 5 months has definitely caught up with us. We are behind on so many things that were put aside or that we've paid the bare minimum for and it just isn't possible to go on like that for any longer. We just don't. know. what. to. do. and that is such a scary place to be.

Baby girl no more

My little girl is growing up and just plain growing. We have been noticing of late that she is done with her little mini crib, with her head smooshed against one side and her feet tightly pressed against the bars on the other. And so while we discussed the idea of a new, bigger crib to get her through just a little bit longer we came to the conclusion that she will sleep in Adrien's old toddler bed now. We were very apprehensive, we went through so much with Adrien and that bed. We had to move him into it early because of his head banging on the crib, then realized we would have to do just the mattress on the floor and pad the corners of his room. When we finally did decide that he could be back on a bed we had to pad the corners and make sure that if he did bang his head on it it would not cause any damage.
Scott sat Isabella down yesterday and told her that we would be moving her into the big bed after her nap and that at night she would be sleeping in it. Then a little while later we put her down for her nap, in the crib. She was so mad at us. I was checking on her and she kept pointing at the little bed and screaming. Finally after talking it over with Scott, we put her in it and have had no problems. She slept in it last night, without falling off and no falling yesterday during her nap. It is amazing to me how much better she is at adjustment than Adrien. He takes everything so personally whereas Isabella is a go with the flow kind of gal.

Today we will pack up the crib and wait to bring it out for the all too soon day that we move her into a twin bed. It will make an interesting head board, what with all her stubborn tooth marks all over it.



P.S. I'll take a picture of her today in her little bed.

oh the babies

Lately our little munchkins have really started to play with each other. They roll on the floor and wrestle and tickle each other. We also got them one of those giant balls from Target and needless to say it offers hours of fun. They love to chase it and throw it at each other. Isabella especially loves it when Adrien throws the ball, blocks, cars and pretty much anything at her, it's pretty crazy. We have also taken to the outdoors again with the nice weather. It has been so lovely and warm. We've had 50' degree weather almost everyday. I can only spring is going to come soon.

The past few days

The past few days have been very busy. We cleaned the house, Scott's brother Alex came over on Saturday, went to the beach, cleaned the car and got some gardening started.

The Beach:


Other than that, Scott and I have been trying quite desperately at times to keep our munchkins happy. They seem to be on a bit of a temper kick. Adrien slammed his thumb in the car door today and has been nursing it with a nice whine. Isabella has molars coming in and I know how that feels. My wisdom teeth are coming in, one has broken through and the rest are just under the surface. Scott seems to be feeling a bit cranky. I don't know if something is going around or if we are just cranky because it is almost but not quite spring.

Spring and summer are my favorite seasons. Spring is wonderful because everything is starting out so fresh and beautiful and new. Like my daffodils and the gladioli I planted. My tulips are starting to show up as well. I think my lilac was brutally killed between the fire and the snow storm. I have seed starting and more on the schedule for next week and the week after. The weeding has begun and ash has been given to the peonies. I am going to have to get some new roses, also having been frozen in the snow. But, alas new things are coming up each day and the kids are going to have so much fun this year! We are going to take them camping for the first time and I am sure that many trips will be made to Oma and Opa's house. I just can't wait for the weather to clear up!

Walking

Scott took the kids for a walk yesterday morning so I could get some homework done. Isabella wanted to walk the entire way. Adrien on the other hand is always perfectly happy with a free ride.

New Etsy Listing

New today to the BelugaMomma shop is this beautiful scarf!


Made with 100% hand painted wool it is soft and the color is so gorgeous. Is approximately 93" long and very warm




You can see the listing and hopefully purchase your own RIGHT HERE!

overheard conversation

Last week, I was knitting on the couch and a train was going by. The kids ran over to the window and sat next to each other to look out and watch it go by.

Isabella: "Whas Dat?!"

Adrien: Tsk... "Oh it's a chooch"



It is so cute how the two of them are communicating and talking to each other everyday. They are playing with each other more and more, and though that is not always a great thing it is really sweet.